February File

This year is going to test me a little bit. I'm getting formally observed later this week, so the principal can determine already whether or not she wants me in the school next year. I'll probably get observed again next month, and the month after that. I am not going to get asked to leave, and if I do get asked to leave, it will not be without the most dramatic fight that I am contractually allowed to muster. And when, not if, the dust clears, and my satisfactory rating intact, my tenure secured, and my competence is proven I will then be able to say "I don't know if I want to keep working here." As this is the fourth year, and I have gotten one graduation class officially under my belt, it might be time to move on, keep my resume fresh, and my laurels rest-free. But if I start thinking about moving jnow, it might be the little bit of mental weakness that will keep me from putting up the hard charging fight that I need to put up in order to make sure that I am the one who gets to choose whether or not I will leave. So I will wait until february, all of those thoughts get filed away for february, and then in february over break I will make a decision and that will be my decision. So the fact that a kid can curse out a teacher and then get a brief talking to and go right back to the same class, I'll file that away. The fact that we changed a whole bunch of kids sped classifactions to make our lives easier, I'll file that away. The fact that I pretty much hate most of my job, most of the time, I'll file that away.